Looking at where I am now, I really wonder how I ever was the person I was, once upon a time. Being a leader, a good influence, a truly upbeat person—who am I now? I feel a little lost. I don’t quite have the achievements that were once so great; I don’t have the passion that was once so admired; nor do I have the experiences that were once so envied of. I no longer have those whom I’ve grown up with by my side—knowing every single one of my likes, dislikes and obsessions. I miss the advisors I grew so close to and the teachers that offered me soundly advice although I didn’t appreciate it at the time. I miss the nightly drives and spontaneous stops at a random park to talk til sunrise. I never realized how grateful I should have been when alcohol and drugs weren’t recreational activities. I see things a different way now. I don’t know if it’s for better or for worst, but I’m definitely more independent in mind, body and soul. But these decisions need to get better. 

I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday.

Note to self: make wiser decisions, be a wise person yesterday, but a wiser person today.